Michael's passing has finally begun to sink in for me. Despite viewing a plethora of news coverage and retrospectives and interviews about his untimely death, I guess it's really true that he's gone. Yes, I have been sad; however, I was appalled by Joe Jackson's behavior at the BET Awards when he was pimping his new music business while displaying an attitude that was completely bereft of any sadness or mourning for his baby boy's passing. What an asshole. I hope he dies with his fists clenched and his jaws tight. But it's okay, because karma is a mufuh, and he will get his.
Not only was Michael a tormented soul, he was constantly trying to gain the approval of a man who tortured him constantly by calling him blackie, big nose, and ugly when he was a child. If a child hears these debilitating commments almost every day of his life, naturally he/she will grow up with huge insecurities as well as self-hatred for himself and (probably) anything that looks like himself. Coupled with the fact that Michael could not sleep well and he was embarking on a grueling tour which required major rehearsals, it's no wonder the man was on the verge of losing it. I've had insomnia and I know how brutal it can be. But to top insomnia off with vigorous physical activity?? It's not a good combination and it's not going to work. I don't want to believe what I'm hearing regarding prescription drugs, however, Michael was trying to quench his pain - and he was in lots of that - literally and figuratively.
I have two theories of how MJ passed:
1 - He accidentally took more medication than he should have in the early morning of June 25 so that he could get some sleep.
2 - Michael may have finally realized that he could not withstand the vicious rehearsals and upcoming 50 date concert tour (50 dates is ludicrous) and he just did not/could not disappoint his fans, his kids, himself, so perhaps he decided to call it a day. I don't want to believe my second theory; however, it 's not entirely improbable given all of the obstacles he was dealing with. Yes, he supposedly was in good shape but he is 50 and he hadn't been performing for over 10 years. I'm not saying he could not have executed the tour; however, 20 dates should have been the goal.
In any event, he's gone now, so please continue to pray for his family, his children, and his soul.
And remember: Each day is a blessing and a gift and it should not be taken for granted.
Peace and hair grease, y'all.